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What happens when the thing you desire so much, that you go the extra limit to evolve from your natural habits just to reach it, is suddenly intangible? What once was an arm reach away is just some mirage of nothingness. I feel like shit by the way because this exact thing is happening to me. I now regret a lot of things i done at the same time regret a lot of things i didn't do. They say change is good, but as of right now, i don't see it that way and who knows when i will see it the "right" way. All i know is that i am lost for words and nothing can express the blankness i feel right now. I blame myself... Thanks for everything